My Desire

My Desire

Life is not about what we can get out of it.
It is all about what we can do for Christ.
We strive to serve ourselves
but we gain nothing.
The things of this world mean exactly that.
They mean absolutely nothing.
Why is it then that we strive so hard?
It can’t be because these things fulfill us,
nor can it be that they make us happy.
So why?
That is the question that is running through my head.
I wake up in the morning dreading the day
because I know what I’ll see
and the sight makes me long so.
I know that this shouldn’t be the case
because it is something of this world.
So why then am I not turning back to God?
It is because I am too prideful.
If I could just take a step back
and see everything from the view of God
Then maybe I would start to follow him again.
That is the desire of my heart.
To really and truly serve him,
I love those around me
and I enjoy the life I have
but they are all meaningless.
God is the only thing that matter in this life.
When I start to realize this then everything changes.
This is what I want.
I no longer want to be the man I am.
Instead I want to be the man that God desires for me.
The type of man that God smiles upon
and says thank you my son for giving unto me
I want to be a man after God’s own heart.